At the end of every year since the beginning of college, I have written a letter to my older self. After freshman year was over, I wrote a note to my sophomore self highlighting some guidelines for having a successful semester. Here are a just a few lines I scribbled down as reminders to myself:
Know your priorities. You need to take care of yourself before you can take care of others.
Don’t be afraid to speak up. Raise your hand. Just do it. There’s no better time than now.
Say hello. The worst thing that could happen is you would have the exact same number of friends before you said hello. The best thing that could happen? You end up with one more friend than you did before.
Today, I wrote yet another letter to my junior graduate self. Yes, technically I am three weeks late but hey – better late than never, right? In truth, I’ve procrastinated writing the letter until now because I didn’t want to confront all the things that were bugging me about myself. I’ve been needing a self-confidence booster because, honestly, I still don’t know what the heck I want to do with my life.
Going to one of the best universities in the country can be intimidating. There is so much passion and fervor. Incredible students creating, changing, organizing all the time. It’s inspiring. But every once in a while, you can’t help but wondering–what am I doing here?
So the letter I wrote to my junior graduate self said: push yourself. It’s never too late to change for the better. Past failures and mistakes don’t matter; what counts is what you can do right now at this very moment. I told myself this:
Maybe not knowing what I want to do after college is okay. Maybe it’s better this way. It’s certainly better than having my entire life mapped out in front of me, with no surprises or spontaneity. One thing I’m sure of is that the best parts about life usually come in packages that fall at our doorstep when we least expect them. Even though I don’t know what I want to do with my life, that means the future is up in the air. Anything can happen. It’s scary, but at the same time, there’s something exciting about the unknown. I direct myself in the pathway I choose, never knowing what’s around the corner.